Re-Welcome

I wanted to re-start up my blog. Not that I have much time to contribute to it but because we have been making changes in our family. We started so many years ago, very slowly. Jeremiah and I wanted to make sure that these changes stuck and we did it because we wanted to get healthy and to loss weight.

However, why stop there? I started looking for cleaning alternatives so that I could get chemicals out of the house for us all. It started with just for the kids but after all of the research that I did, it had to be for us all. Then in the mist of all of these changes I was introduced to essential oils. The Ferrari of essential oils then I became an Young Living Essential Oils Independent Distributor. This was after I got involved with another company that I really did not research enough (was not an essential oils company). 

Since my last post about accountability, I have had a hard time with cutting my portion size when eating. I love food is the problem but I realized that even though I love food I don't have to eat it all or like a enough for a man. However, today after a long few months I have met my first goal! I'm down 50 lbs. I thought it would feel different. I'm of course very happy that I have lost this weight, please don't get me wrong. 

I think it is because we had a long weekend, my van broke down in town (going to cost me 400 for the part and however much to get the part programed), then we went to disc golf league. So I'm tired. So the good news, even if you are food addict you can change the way you eat and loss weight. I feel that I eat enough to be satisfied, I'm not starving. Then when I feel that I am, I stop myself and say "do you really need this?", there hasn't been a time when I did need it. I had to teach myself what it felt like to be satisfied before I got to the point of being over full. I had to change what I was putting in my body. 

For me I need vegetables and protein. I'm diabetic. Well let me change that I'm pre-diabetic (my AC1 is 5.5) and I have been able to come off of my meds a little. I have only had to take 1/2 a pill in the last week. That is because I found out that I can't eat white pasta. What I can and can not have has been eye opening. 

So how did I do it, I had help from my husband. He helped me change my way of thinking about food and how full I really am. It helped me stop over eating. I also started using my Young Living Essential oils.  Ever glass of water I drink I put a drop of 4 of grapefruit in it. I drink water all day! If you have questions please ask and I will keep posting and sharing! Thanks for everyone's support!

Accountability

Today I'm changing gears on talking about my kids. Today is the day I work on me and making myself accountable! Today is the day I come clean and make changes in myself. I have went to long without making myself accountable! So here we go, putting the truth out there for everyone to see and read in black and white.

My highest weight was 340lbs! That is right! 340 lbs! I can't believe that it has gotten this far. Well yes I can, I put everyone above myself, everyone else is first but me. But I have went wrong some where. In the past year I lost almost 50 lbs. Then 2 months ago, my diabetes got out of control because again I wasn't being accountable. I started eating crap, I thought I could save money by eating the way I was. Did I save money, well yes I did. However, at what cost was I saving money. Obliviously it was at the cost of my health.

My life was in the way of me taking care of me. But isn't that what a good mom does? Takes care of everyone? Well no doubt I'm a good mom and I'm an alright wife but what about me? Can I change these habits of giving myself away? Well I don't know how much I can but I'm going to give it a shot! So by the grace of God and the support of no one, I'm changing!

So here I go; again, 340 lbs, now gaining weight, I'm back up to 297.5, that is a 5.7 weight gain! So I'm going to use my Wii. I set a goal of losing 4 lbs in 2 weeks. I want to start out slow because I don't want to set myself up for failure.

Medical issues: kidney disease (born with it), high blood pressure (because of the kidney's), walls of heart have hardened (because of the years of high blood pressure), gout, diabetes, back deformity, scoliosis, knee injury when I was 7, 3 really bad pregnancies, and lots of meds.

Goals: I want to take this list down as much as possible and live a healthy life, I want to be able to lift my daughter as she grows, I want to be able to play and work out with my son and husband.

So here I go, eating healthy and exercising. Please say some prayer for me!

Is It Still the Same?

Is it still the same? That is a yes and no answer! So we have decided to make a change in our homeschooling program. I feel that we are still homeschooling though. Tyler is going to be going to virtual school for his 8th grade year. It is through the State of Kansas and it is sponsored by USD 397. I will still have him work on things that they don't offer like bible study. We are needing a positive change and I think that this is going to be it. I have been doing this for a while with little support in my home or from family. So we all think that having a teacher, a tutor, and the school district is going to be a positive change. They are willing to work with our crazy schedule and he can work at his own pace.

Tyler is really excited! We get to go the school for orientation this coming Wednesday. He gets a free lap top and printer. We get to meet the teachers and learn more about the in's and out's of what he is going to have to do. The school will host different activities that we will be able to go to also. We think that this is a great positive change that is going to change all of our lives. Mainly we are hoping that it is going to help give Tyler more responsibilities to help him grow as a young man. I hope that everyone out there has a great school year to come and is as excited as we are!!

Here is the informational wed site for the school if anyone is interested.....

http://www.kansasonlinelearning.org/index.html