Accountability

Today I'm changing gears on talking about my kids. Today is the day I work on me and making myself accountable! Today is the day I come clean and make changes in myself. I have went to long without making myself accountable! So here we go, putting the truth out there for everyone to see and read in black and white.

My highest weight was 340lbs! That is right! 340 lbs! I can't believe that it has gotten this far. Well yes I can, I put everyone above myself, everyone else is first but me. But I have went wrong some where. In the past year I lost almost 50 lbs. Then 2 months ago, my diabetes got out of control because again I wasn't being accountable. I started eating crap, I thought I could save money by eating the way I was. Did I save money, well yes I did. However, at what cost was I saving money. Obliviously it was at the cost of my health.

My life was in the way of me taking care of me. But isn't that what a good mom does? Takes care of everyone? Well no doubt I'm a good mom and I'm an alright wife but what about me? Can I change these habits of giving myself away? Well I don't know how much I can but I'm going to give it a shot! So by the grace of God and the support of no one, I'm changing!

So here I go; again, 340 lbs, now gaining weight, I'm back up to 297.5, that is a 5.7 weight gain! So I'm going to use my Wii. I set a goal of losing 4 lbs in 2 weeks. I want to start out slow because I don't want to set myself up for failure.

Medical issues: kidney disease (born with it), high blood pressure (because of the kidney's), walls of heart have hardened (because of the years of high blood pressure), gout, diabetes, back deformity, scoliosis, knee injury when I was 7, 3 really bad pregnancies, and lots of meds.

Goals: I want to take this list down as much as possible and live a healthy life, I want to be able to lift my daughter as she grows, I want to be able to play and work out with my son and husband.

So here I go, eating healthy and exercising. Please say some prayer for me!